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The Dating Adventures of a Depressed Hate-filled Monster

by Edge

in Journal

I guess one of the high points of being practiced in the area of picking up and dating women is that I can still be successful even when I feel like utter shit.

Half the time, I have to fight to not hate my life these days.  My hatred for my job and my overall feeling of frustration with day-to-day life is poisoning my ability to be happy.  I just walk around with a scowl on my face, spitting venom about everyone and everything in front of me.

Except when it comes to pick-up.  When I’m in the bar I am able to stay suave and transmute my self-loathing into charm.  It takes finesse but I think I’ve mastered it.

I’ll be on a date commenting about this and that and the girl will laugh and touch me and say, “You’re so funny.”  No, I’m not – I’m being serious, you just think I’m joking.

Thing is, when I’m in situations where I just want to be a blunt asshole [Click to Continue Reading…]

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I Hate My Job

by Edge

in Journal

Lately I feel as though my life resembles the beginning of Fight Club.

I don’t just hate my job.  I loathe my job.  I detest my job.

I work a 9 to 5 for a company nobody has ever heard of, doing work that nobody notices for a product that nobody cares about.

I started my job with the thought that I would just be there for a little while.  This was going to be my job to hold me over until I found a better one.  I mean, I have a degree from a good university, I have a strong skill set in high demand areas and I even enjoy doing the work in those areas.

But here I am, sitting in an office for 40 hours a week doing something that is basically glorified [Click to Continue Reading…]

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Legend – Succeeding

by Legend Journal

For gross generalizations purposes I think people fall into 3 different categories and I am going to rant about it. Different types: 1.  Anything is possible and I am going to keep pursuing what ever I want until I get it.  If it doesn’t work and I get knocked down, face rejection, I stand up [...]

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Edge – Heading Towards Depression

by Edge Journal

Like I said… I am committed to writing about real stuff on this blog and this post is kind of difficult to write about for me. I was really depressed for a while up until recently. I was riding high for a while – I was really on top of my life, taking on a [...]

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Edge – Depression is a Shitty Motivator

by Edge Inner Game

Years ago, I was in bad shape. People these days love to throw around the “D” word (depression), but we’ll just say that I was miserable and felt helpless and hopeless to improve my situation. These days I am so far from experiencing those feelings that I honestly feel like I am a different person. [...]

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