Lately I feel as though my life begins the beginning of Fight Club.
I don’t just hate my job. I loathe my job. I detest my job.
I work a 9 to 5 for a company nobody has ever heard of, doing work that nobody notices for a product that nobody cares about.
I started my job with the thought that I would just be here for a little while. This was going to be my job to hold me over while I looked for a better job. I mean, I have a degree from a good university, I have a strong skill set in high demand areas and I even enjoy doing the work in those areas.
But here I am, sitting in an office for 40 hours a week doing something that is basically glorified [Click to Continue Reading…]
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anger,
bitterness,
depression,
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I think something great is happening here.
But before I say what it is and why, I want to make something clear: Learning to improve your dating skills with women can be a brutal process.
Let me tell you a story…
I was walking down the street last night, filled with anger, bitterness and hopelessness. I was walking with my Legend and Amp, spitting absolute venom about dating, women and the game in general.
“It’s all so unfair. I work so hard to be a good person in the world. With integrity. With loyalty. With honesty and honor.
And yet I can walk up to a girl in a bar, say something to open a dialogue with the purest of intentions and somehow in this world it’s OK for her to look at me like a piece of garbage and coldly dismiss me like I’m some sort of social parasite.
To be honest, I need to conjure every ounce of strength I have to not flip out at these implicit social insults. Who is she to judge me?”
And on and on I went, pissing and moaning about how much I hate the “game” and how annoying this all can be.
Having shattered their until-moments-ago-euphoric buzz, and Legend look at me, desperately hoping to talk me off the ledge. “Edge, you know it’s a game. Yeah, it’s bullshit at times, but it’s not like you don’t know what you’re doing. You’ve dated 7 girls at the same time! You’ve had threesomes and dated every type of girl on the checklist…”
“Yeah,” I said, “but that doesn’t mean it feels like success to me…”
OK, so what’s my point in sharing this story.
My point is [Click to Continue Reading…]
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developing a thick skin,
gaining confidence,
learning to pick up women